today has had legitimate birthday MAGIC.
my last class of the day ended early because of a fire alarm. and then, riding my bike home, someone at a stop light told me they loved my skirt. at an intersection, someone actually yelled “happy birthday” out her car window.
i had beer for lunch. beer that i bought. and i painted my toenails.
AND! the real celebration hasn’t even started yet.
Roger Ebert on Christopher Hitchens, religion, faith, death, etc.
and i’m not sure that i’m entirely ready.
it’s weird to be home, to not need a map, to know where i’m sleeping and it not be the ground of any town we can in wyoming. i loved it. it’s perfect for right now, for when decisions need made and i’m afraid of stagnating or becoming one thing and not one hundred others.
we’ve seen so much. proved a lot to ourselves about what we can handle, what we can meet, and how much there IS.
in a few days we saw indian reservations, desert badlands, lush coniferous forests, a piece of america where bears and bison still have first dibs on the land, and big, sprawling cities with chain restaurants, giant sky, more stars than illinois can imagine, trailer parks, log cabin mansions. we ate chips and beer for dinner. we woke up with the sun. we shared travel tales with old harley riders. we played in snow in august, smelled the sulfur of geothermal holes in the ground. we danced and kissed and climbed on the mountain that could be the end of the world as we know it. we drove the fucking beartooth. i met my fear of the interstate. i found out i have a grandfather who only buys local, seasonal fruit and is incredibly wise.
we traveled the pony express, the oregon trail, and a few indian trails, and there was a sense that other than the highway, that land looks exactly like it did when indians and pioneers were on it.
right now i feel like there’s a whole lot of things i can put my faith in; that there really is a whole world out there.