“Imagine you’re sailing to a new home overseas when the unthinkable happens: shipwreck. Somehow in all the chaos, you manage to find a lifeboat and scramble aboard with only a backpack containing your laptop, CDs, and DVDs. After several days at sea on the verge of death, you finally float ashore an uncharted island, where you find people in a primitive society without electricity. They ask if you need food and water. “Yes, please,” you gasp. “Fine, what do you have to trade?” Shocked, you eagerly show your electronics. “That is of no use to us. Do you have anything else?” Realizing they’re serious, you ask if you can roam the island for food. “No,” they reply, “All this belongs to us. Go find your own island.” Then, in stunned disbelief, you watch them turn and leave you to die amidst your useless wealth. After considering the obvious evil of this example, I have a simple question. Just how sure are you that it’s perfectly okay for you to enjoy all those electronic gadgets while so many people in this world don’t have food and clean water?”—Andrew Tallman (via azspot)
today i put bullshit aside and hammered out a 9-page research paper about time, fate, and star imagery in romeo and juliet. writing about shakespeare, guys, is weird. and difficult. i don’t know how to do something that has not been done before when it comes to shakespeare.
but the real thing here is, is this gruesome writing process i have now. i noticed there’s a way i do things that feels mine, and it doesn’t all feel so lost, so shot-in-the-dark. there is a method, a sense of approaching, tackling, breaking down, and stacking into neat piles.
but it is still hard because it’s slow. writing is such slow stuff. i can’t write 9 intelligible, interesting pages in one hour. i can’t make sure every sentence flows into the next, and that MLA is perfect, and that my sources aren’t just parroting my thoughts but somehow stand ajar and provocative without time. and it sucks. it really sucks. i know what i want it to look like, and i want to put it down on paper in seconds, but instead, i am sitting in a cafe, stomping my feet, biting pens, rubbing my finger on the rim of glasses trying to sift this writing out in a fine grain instead of letting it be course and choppy like first impulse tells me.
there is great discontinuity between how genius i am in my dome and how human i am on paper, and it is this patience, this willingness to spare all my time to sit and do these things right, and slow, and work hard. i see it now. i get it. i have written hundreds of pages about myself, of paper-thin fiction, and even more research papers, and it all, always, lacks patience.
so today i decided to make banana bread, because bread is ALWAYS better than throwing something away, and it took the oven almost half an hour to stop smelling like frozen pizza and start smelling like bananas.
1. glenn beck has a children’s book out. this makes me hope children are as intuitive to evil and, well, blatant stupidity as they’re credited. nausea actually took me over when i saw the headline. 2. i had to watch a commercial on the news before i could see the photos of the day. 3. the GEO is maybe going to strike next week, which means no class, but class work’s still due. sooooo we get to be responsible for it without classroom instruction. this is a two-fold disappointment. i truly think the GEO is not being unreasonable in their demands, and i support them. but the only people that get hurt in a strike like this are the students.
good things about today:
1. bare knee weather. STILL! 2. first day of 100 crunches for 100 days. 3. lots of broccoli for lunch makes me feel strong. 4. reading tolstoy for homework. 5. COD MODERN WARFARE 2 AT MIDNIGHT OMFFMMFOOKMGOMGGOMFG. it could get br00tal i guess you could say.
“Religion is far more of a choice than homosexuality. And the protections that we have for religion — we protect religion. And talk about a lifestyle choice — that is absolutely a choice… It’s a travesty that people have forced someone who is gay to have to make their case that they deserve the same basic rights as someone else…”—Jon Stewart (via adayinboston) (via jesseboy) (via camiwillknow) (via gunstreetgirl) (via notesfromundervault) (via redorangeorangeonred) (via ljm)