August 2008
13 posts
i absorb every bit of things, and get so intensely involved that it takes over my whole brain and body, my fingers and toes are just the edges of whatever moment is going on around me. like, when i’m late to my first class at a big school on my first day as a transer student, and when i’m stranded places because i can’t figure out the bus, or i’m late to work everyday, and...
last night we threw our first house party, and it was a dream come true. there was plenty to drink and happy people, ample laughter in a sticky summer night, girls in pretty dresses, and boys all huddled in their circles of conversation. the night was set to camera flashes and smiles and sweaty hands on sweaty hands. the police were called, and it was handled perfectly. i drank too much, but...
for about the first time this summer i opened up a word document to start writing and decided to go running instead. everything about this summer is keep moving, keep moving. you’re stronger now. look at you go. i’m thriving in it. maybe later. for now, running.
last year i made a life goals list, and on it were typical things like get drunk on wine with laura (accomplished), get a small tattoo i can laugh at when i’m old (we’re still working on it), and live in a tiny apartment by myself in the city. in the past year, some of those goals have become more important, more i want, mostly the ones about companionship and being less afraid, but i...
