tomorrow i move in with laura. fuckin’ a i can not believe my life right now. there is a july sunset outside my window, and summer bug sounds, and piles of clothes all around. i had a fucking great day at work. i went for a run, and ya know what, i like it a lot because when i go running, i stop comparing myself to other people. i stop thinking i’m not small enough, i’m not small enough, i’m not small enough and start appreciating all my body can do. it can run and jump and stretch. it moves me into new houses, writes brilliant papers, creates art, gives good hugs, and listens intently. it stops being about being good enough, and i think that’s just as good as the cardio.