i made a new tumblr. this one is strictly things i write and pictures i take and things that inspire me so deeply that it needs to be with those other things.
i love that tumblr is a place of so many reblogs, of sharing other people’s work and images and stories. it keeps me away from the self-centered part of the internet, my facebook and email and yadayada. now i want to be a part of the sharing. it’s time for that. otherwise i’ll never get better, and i am ready to make that jump. so here, take this. please. if you like it, share it with your friends. if you hate it, i need that too.
right now, it’s a lot of pictures, but the writing will catch up. promise.
lately i’m particularly interested in the ambiguity in glimpses. just a small bit, the rest left to interpretation. there’s a lot of small, a lot of we’ll see.
“that’s the way they did it in the old country. two people battle the elements that are trying to kill them, and if one of them weakens, the other dies. if they stay strong, they get to die some other way. that was romance. my grandparents stayed in love for over sixty years.”—rob sheffield, love is a mixed tape.
i can’t believe i said i would go back to monmouth to see melissa this weekend. really? was i on meth? maybe i’m being a big baby, but there are nights i have nightmares about being forced to move back there. nightmares. it’s been since may. it snowed yesterday. it’s been two seasons ago!
i know i’ll survive it, and it’ll be whatever. there’ll be some good stories and some eye rolling, and a ha ha, yeah, i went back to monmouth. but i think the last time i did one of these, one of those oh, when it’s a month away, it doesn’t look so bad, let’s go ahead and sign up for this, i went to a mercy me concert with one of my really religious friends. the only panick attacks i have ever had have been in christian churches. and have you ever tried to bum a cigarette at a christian concert?
lighting a candle somewhere challenges darkness everywhere.
i don’t want you to do everything. i want you to do anything.
Dr. Ayers at monmouth college, fall of 2007.
lindsey’s quotes from his convocation in 2005 made me want to look up my notes from last fall. i remember defending him then from the people who thought it was bad to just listen to him talk; that he would tell us to go blow everything up, and you can get away with it. a year after that i was writing letters to the daily illini about the same kinds of issues.
“We are all more than any superficial statement made about us. We are all works in progress. We must see every human being before us as a 3-D creature on a voyage.”—
Dr. William Ayers (aka BILL AYERS AHHH RUN AWAY TERRORIST MCCAIN 08 OBAMA’S A MUSLIN), in a talk he gave at my alma mater in 2005. I went to this convocation as part of my gig assistant-teaching Willhardt’s freshman liberal arts class, and I remember loving it.
I just found my notes today, in an old journal. Wish I would have found them earlier—this quote would have been pretty timely, given the ways his name was being tossed around just a few weeks ago.
He also said during that talk, “Don’t let your life make a mockery of your values.”
i remember when he spoke at monmouth too! and i took such notes and found him to be deeply interesting and compelling, and in all actuality, when i found out ayers and obama were connected, i wanted to vote for him more.